sisters.

Hi sissy, yeah, this is like a blogpost dedicated to you. and yes, i am writing this on 7/12/2013 but this blogpost is only gonna go up like now, 4/10/2013, because today, you gain another status, Mrs Neo. okay technically it was last year christmas. but it only strike me that you are really not gonna be just my sister now tt the banquet is done and all. so yea.

well, i decided to start this blog post early, because i wanted to craft this blog post in a way that i will not be critisized by you, this grammar nazi. but like that will change anything. im too used to writing in singlish and stuffs, but ill try alright.

24April1995, i came out of mommy (okay this sound wrong like this but if you think of it in a scientific way, it actually is literal meaning. we all come out of our moms) and perhaps, i don't know, maybe i was a threat to you? I used to get really upset that you are bullying me, and sort of like not being the sister that i see my friends have. All i remember was all the scoldings, and because of the age gap, we weren't exactly close because you had your own friends. I dont know if you deliberately made me cry when i was little, as a form of revenge. Since no matter what you do, as long as i cry, i win. So why not make me cry more and get punished for the right thing right. I only started to understand how the elder one would feel, when the parents are busy handling the younger ones. After hearing it from my friends, from mommy how sorry she was for neglecting you and that she couldn't afford for half the things i have now for you back when you were little, and of course, occasionally for you.

Our relationship really didn't get better until i got to secondary school. Before that it was all quarrels.

But then, you got a boyf. a serious one this time. and even got engaged and now married to him. Honestly, i felt that something good will happen between the two of you. And i am happy that you got engaged last Christmas. But yknow what, i can never call Ian by the status Jiefu. Maybe you can say that im rude. You can say that i have no manners. But aside of it being awkward. It really isnt easy to be calling someone who told me right in the face "Your sister is no longer yours. She's my wife now" It really hurts deep inside yknow. I know, im petty. But you were all that i had, other than daddy and mommy. If there is anyone who i will be that attached other than daddy and mommy, its prolly just you. And to know that you are no longer "mine", as far as its a joke, i just grew to see him as a competitor. Especially when there were times during your relationship that i caught you guys calling me names behind my back, calling me princess for all the wrong reasons. And then during new year, you were no longer there anymore. And then slowly, your life only revolved around him, and work. and you know why i really hated to learn the ropes? Because i didn't want to accept the fact that one day, you will not be in this house anymore to do them. Because i will be the one to take up all the responsibility. Call my overly-attached, as much as i dont show, i hate to see you go. and that one sentence just hit right on the spot and damn, that bloody hell hurts.

But of course, after a year of healing, i came to realise that you cant really be taken away. You stay in Sengkang. As much as that is not as close as home, i still know that i will still see you, and i can still find you when i need you.

I will always remember how you went down to confront my primary school friend for throwing a brick at me and xinyi.
I will always remember when you said " I dont like her, because she bullies my sister."
I will always remember how you tried to talk sense into me.
I will always remember how you were always there for me when i needed you.
And of course, i will always remember how you took me as priority over certain people on certain occasions.

Sissy, be happy with your wedded status. Im glad that you found someone who will be there for you, regardless of sickness, tire, or obstacles. Im happy that you found him, and he is one lucky guy to find you. You are always the person i look up to, in the past, present and future. Don't forget me okay. And Ian, if you ever dare to bully my sissy, ill kick your arse and send you to mars you understand. oh right, i shouldnt be calling you by name anymore.

Jie, Jiefu, May you two live happily ever after. (: