No Air

im suffocating.
under the pressure of work.
no.

correction.

im under the pressure of myself trying to be perfect.

the moment i open my intern report file, i feel sick in my tummy.
 I don't wanna screw up this 16 CU.
but i feel that i would.

I want to be able to aim high AND achieve no lesser than that pointy letter
but.
i feel that im losing it.

dont go all "you are kidding yourself. you are crazy" on me.
 because i already know that.

 im stressed.
 and then i gorge myself with food.
 and now im broke and fat and ugly and inferior
 so i shall starve myself. 

i need help. 

anyone?