Life and Death

There will come a day
That is the last scene of our entire life.
Whether it is a scene of you frantically running for your life but defeated by death,
Or a scene where you lay on your deathbed with people who love you, crying.
That day will come, we just dont know when.
It doesn't have to be planned and expected.
Heart wrecking as it seems, it can be as sudden as your exchange of goodbyes just minutes ago turned out to be the last.

"Every year,  we celebrate our birthday."
"Every year, we pass our death date without knowing either"

Im sorry guys. I really need to get this off my chest. Ive been trying to study but I cant get it through. Knowing so many people passed away and they aren't even old and sickly. It just makes me afraid. What if im next? I don't want to leave now. I havent found my true love. I havent been filial to my parents. I haven't told my friends how much they mean to me. I haven't made myself proud. Ive never lived, I merely survived. And I dont want to leave just like that. I don't want to leave my life at a point where I'm sacrificing so much for academics. I want a chance to live my life my way too.

its just too scary and too much to handle.