Some people are just not suited for FNB.

Hey guys. yeap. im back for another blogpost! this time for a more lively and cheery blogpost. Thank you all all of you to have texted me, or talked to me after reading my previous posts. You guys have no idea how much it means for me. I will promise you, i will learn to be less hard on myself and will learn to be happier. maybe get a counselor if i need one (yes, Atika, i will. hahaha) but that aside, i would like to say that i am feeling alot better now. i decided that i should not be showing my unhappiness and fear all the time, because my parents are affected by me. They can't comprehend how can i not sleep and just study. But nevertheless, i know that all they wanted was for me to have a cert. so let me be a filial child and not show them the agony that i am going through because all these are what i put on myself and has nothing to do with them. I talked about not bringing my feelings home to Mr Dy once, and he said that i didn't have to suppress it because it is normal for parents to want to know why their child is feeling upset and get a little affected--because it is their child. But this time, i decided i shouldn't. because it is a battle i should learn to fight alone. But enough of that. I aint here to whine. Maybe whine one more time about how my life is over when results are out *gulp* but till then, let me fill this place with happier memories yea?

so today, i woke up at 730 and stayed in bed to watch glee. I am soooooooooo in love with Santana's voice. or rather Naya Rivera. AND SHES SUPER HOT. im straight guys, im straight. hahaha. i shall aspire to work out and be one day her build. She is the perfect body that i am looking for (: well anyway, after watching glee, i got up, showered  and prep-ed for going out with jolene. Decided to wear my midi skirt and V-up top today because i was feeling more flat-tummy than any other days.

 I am the S N E A K E R kind of girl

 //Someone told me I look B E A U T I F U L when i smile//

And i watched the first ep of The Voice Season 6. IT WAS AWESOME. Christina Grimmie is my favourite and SHE IS ON TEAM ADAMMMMM. HOW AWESOME IS THAT TO HAVE TWO OF YOUR FAV TGT~~~~ hahaha. and Adam look so handsome with his backcomb sleek hair. I canawt. Why do i not have a boyfriend that hot. (okay i can answer it myself: because i aint looking like a VS model). Well, i dont even have a boyfriend to start with. hahaha. Aint nobody got time for that. i think i will go crazy if i get a boyf now, because i have so much things to handle i cannot. hahaha. i might just die alone because no one understands me :( okay keeding. i believe my prince charming is out there. im talking to myself again right? right. whatever. alalala. MOVING ON.

So i met jolene on the bus and we went for Wimbly Lu Chocolate. Its at Jln Riang. you can walk from NEX or take a bus from the bus stop outside NEX interchange (133/135) and alight one stop. I would say alight one stop because the internet says two BUT IT IS FREAKING FAR. haha. just take a stop from there, and when you alight, walk towards the suriya curry house. see a traffic light and walk towards that block of terrace. continue moving in and then at some point just go right when the road has this 2 lane place and find jln riang. if not just use google map when you are there and you can find it but i confirm plus chop that distance you take from that bus stop will be so much lesser than what the net tells you. 

So here's what we ate! Chocolate Marshmallow Pie, Chocolate Creme Brulee and English Breakfast Tea! It cost $17.50 but we felt that it was good and worth going back. THOUGH we wont suggest having the marshmallow pie if you are looking for something special. The Creme Brulee is SUPER GOOD. ITS A MUST TRY. at first i saw the sugar on top and im like shit, this is gonna be damn sweet. BUT NO. IT IS NOT. IT IS SUPER DUPER UBER NICE. the Marshmallow Pie looks nicer than it taste, but it still taste good tho (: next time ill just swing by and have a little alone time there, the ambience is good. and since its so near my house. of course, i gotta wait till im a little richer. the things aren't really cheap. Between 5-8 bucks. The creme Brulee was 5/6 bucks i can't remember. But i felt that it is worth the money.

had alots of fun and laughter with jolene. and literally talked to her about my worries too. As well as my intention to maybe take a year off school before continuing to uni because i feel that if by year 3 i am not "better", then i should not continue to uni with a tired mind, mentally and physically. I know some of you will be saying im wasting my time. but if i ever take time off, i just wanna use the time to figure out what things are going on in my life, and what i want to do. and this idea came from weishi. it just struck me so badly when she told me that she wanna do this. i just felt that i should too. Because for the past years, all i ever did was study. was i ever happy? happy with how my life is and how blessed i am. yes. but not genuinely happy as in every smile comes from the bottom of my heart. I don't want to be living this kind of life. i wanna be happy. and i wanna make people around me happy. and thats the true value of life.

well anyway, we were around in there for an hour and see my caption. yes jolene is the one who cant work in fnb. she toppled the top of the teapot while trying to refill our cups. Tell her no more already don't believe me la. HAHAHA. so i thought why not i use it as a title. seems interesting enough yea? and ive worked in fnb before. i like it actually. but the pay isnt quite appealing. tho you get free meals ^^ i miss working at NZN. i miss marivick, jas, chef, vivien, eunice, and so many more. If only the pay was just a teeny bit more. i might have continued. but maybe not. i dont wanna drive myself crazy. hahaha.

So we went to bugis and there was nothing. it just isnt our season now. So we headed to town which we managed to get something from F21. and we were also thinking "siaoliao, our taste upgrade. now all expensive and mature clothes liao" hahaha. she accompanied me till around 8 before we left for home. such a happy day and im glad i went out with her because i wont be seeing her for 4 months :( am gonna miss her so badly. But then again, i have found someone to do lookbook photoshoots with me! i never knew jolene was into such things and i was too embarrassed to ask. i mean like, im not trying to act one model, but i really like to take awesome photos. like it doesn't really matter if im infront of the camera or behind the camera, i just like to do it. It makes ma happy when the photos turn out nice (: so yea, look out for our lookbook soon! we will be having a... erm.... Jolene&Jessica lookbook soon and we decided to scout all the nice places around singapore for our photos. so hyped up for it. yayyy! (:

well, this pretty much sums up my day. i know, there is still alittle bit of sadness in the pot (or maybe not. i tried to be lively) but then deep down i cant entirely eliminate the fear. i know it is coming, and im just afraid. what can i do? nothing actually. but then, it will be me against the world. i know i can do this. thanks for reading.

xoxo,
x GeeCeeElle x