so I was listening to glee's songs and I got really depressed, especially the one where Finn sang with Mr Schuester. Because Finn passed away :( not just on set, okay he didn't die in the show.. but Cory Monteith passed away :( not sure if that's his surname because I've always called him Finn. But back to the point, he passed away just days ago. and then the next thing I knew, it was on the twitter, news everywhere. but what caught my attention was people praying for Lea to be strong as well.
They were going to get married in two weeks time. Imagine planning for a wedding and then having to receive a call that you don't have your groom anymore. And that you have to plan his funeral instead. This is tragic. Imagine the pain. Even when I first saw the news, I felt so devastated because glee was the first English drama and the only one i find myself so attached to. Like I will get really happy if I got home and caught glee. And I liked Finn. and everyone else but Finn was so cute. okay that's beside the point but imagine Lea. No one would be strong enough for this. Not even a man. She's a woman, who wanted a man to protect and spend the rest of her life with. but now that he's gone. what is she going to do? My heart goes out to her. and I sincerely hope that she will stay strong. it's tough, but I'm sure Cory will want her to be. #StayStrongLea You two were the. cutest couple, and you two will continue to be. Because Cory live in your heart. He will always be there.
setting my emotional depression over a fallen star (I've never felt so sad over a person's death when I don't even know the person) aside,
We always say such things happen in dramas. but reality proves it. It doesn't only happen in drama. Like the Chinese idiom goes, '戏如人生' (meaning that life is like a show), we really cannot just stop anticipating that our life is gonna be entirely different from TV. I mean, look at the facts, there are people married to a royal family, there are people who met their true love while hanging on a cliff, there are people whose life took a dramatic turn when they realise they have some in curable disease. Or in Lea's case, her fiancé left her just two weeks before their wedding, before they could exchange vows to stay devoted and stick through thick and thin with each other, and grow old tgt. Everything. we always thought it was only in drama. until they happen to us.
They say, things happen to us for a reason. They either make us more successful or teaches us how to be stronger. But not everyone can get back up tt easily. Not when there is regret. When one leaves, they go. forever. you don't get a ghost whisperer to come knocking at your door telling you that 'Hey, he's here and we shall talk things out so he can go into the light' and because of that, you uncover some dark truth and you move on with your life because you don't have any more regrets of not getting a last talk/emotional contact with the person you loved. We don't get that in reality. Even if our lives are a set of drama, it is only true to a certain extent. (I mean, life is such a creative scriptwriter that idk how or why he writes things till we are so damn miserable). But honestly, I cannot stress how much that we should treasure and cherish. I don't. but I try to. (Sorry for not doing what im preaching but I've been spoilt for too long, it takes time for me to adapt). You don't know when they will leave. you don't know if the next second your phone rings again, will it be them cheerfully telling you how their day is, or if it's someone else telling you they are gone forever.
I went to Adam Khoo camp during secondary 4. and I never remember camps. except the part where I get to bully people. but that's besides the point. (and damn. I need to stop being so comical in such a serious blogpost -cue paso face-)
Imagine, that you are sitting in a dark room. The door opens and a shadow dawn upon you. You looked up and struggled through the glaring beam of light. it was your mom and your dad. as soon as you wanted to call them, the door closes. you want to rush to the door for them, but you stood rooted to the ground. the door opens again and a another shadows dawned. this time, you took longer to recognize. it was still your parents. but they are older, with hunched backs and frail body. you still couldn't move. and the next thing you know, they fell. they fall to the ground. despite screaming and shouting, they were there, motionless and lifeless. look at the wrinkles on their face, look at the strands of grey hair they got from aging and stress for worrying over you, look at their worried faces. Look at what you have done. have you done them proud, or have you been despicable enough, to let them down. to be unfilial and disappointing to them. have you done what a child should have done?
I couldn't remember the exact words. But all I remembered was that I cried my heart out. Like I cry very easily but that was one of the rare 'HeartPain' type of crying. try it. close yourself in a room. read those words slow. imagine yourself in that situation.
It doesn't have to be your parents. It can be anyone. No matter how much you hate or love, you shouldn't take them for granted. they came into your life for a reason and have you lived up to their expectation. like how they came into your life with a purpose-- to teach you something. But in reciprocal, you need to teach them something too. sad to say, either you make their life great or you make them miserable. but you are still there. teach them, love them. be there for them.
Don't wait till it's gone.
Im sure you will Cory. Shining and looking at Lea. #RIPCory. #StayStrongLea
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