Falling apart.

That car ride home. 

15min. 

Scary enough. 

Mom and Dad quarreling.. 

over how dad is committed all his time to the temple.. 

how mom being jealous yet harsh with her words about things dad didn't do..

it sounded as if 3 years back...

it sounded as if, my family was gonna tear down anytime..

please don't...

I'll be a good girl.. 

sissy's married now.. 

I'm the only one left in this family to fix things.. 

don't know how I can.. 

don't know if I'll help.. 

but..

I just don't want this family to fall apart. 

starting with myself, by keeping my emotions exclusive to myself. Bad emotions. Take a ride, Scream them out, cry them alone in the toilet. just not vent it at home. 

and I ought to accompany mom more now that sissy is married and working, and dad is always not home.. 

maybe I wasn't accompanying mommy enough, that's why she is so cranky. 

yes. it must have been me.. 

Daddy, Mommy.. 

please don't quarrel anymore...