Not good enough.

I don't want to rant, I don't want to whine. but honestly, the amount of stress accumulating in my head is overwhelming. I promised to let myself lower those bloody expectations. I promised to let myself be happier. but I honestly can't.

I've never felt so dejected after a practical before. it's not that I did something wrong. but I feel so... empty.

like I did something wrong. or I didn't accomplish something. right I didn't accomplish anything. I never handed in any report feeling that 'yes, I'm positive my answers are right.' I feel like I'm walking on thin ice. every wrong move and I'm going down.

I better pull up my socks. I really better pull them up high.

this sem is not one to play a fool. chewlin. even if you sacrifice all sleep all energy all time all passion. it's a must to complete this sem. just slap yourself and wake up please.

sigh.