CT in one week's time. not prepared at all. people say, CCTA is screwed up. cannot score. and yet I have a practical exam on Wednesday and I know I'm gonna screw it up because I goodness-know-why so damn clumsy and blur. how the hell am I supposed to pass (notice I didn't say score) when I actually tried to SHAKE a centrifuged solution?!
immuno... 5% test tmr and goodness. I don't feel prepared and my head is aching like mad. tho I studied for three days, I should feel prepared right? no. I'm feeling so stressed. because everyone is studying. because I want to score in immuno. and because I know that I can no longer score. I'm dying alrdy.
DBG and MMB. still so damn afraid.
This semester is so scary. so highly credited. I screw up this sem, I screw up my GPA. help. It's suffocating.
I need to learn to not put stress on myself. I know deep down that all these stress is because I'm demanding myself to score. demanding myself to do well. and why? not for my future. not for my parents. not for anything but my ego. I don't want to be looked down. and I definitely don't want to, especially when almost everyone sees me as the smart kid. it's almost suffocating.
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