yknow how I'll always rant and whine about how my day is bad because mom nagged at me, or because something happened that I didn't want it to? but nowadays I kinda stopped.
it's almost as if I've given up alrdy.
School has been sucky since Day1. never a day I've handed in a work that was of satisfactory standard. and I wonder why am I like this. Year 2 is the toughest and I'm not doing well enough.
All I wanna do is to sleep. I'm so tired after consecutive nights of 4 hours sleep. and yet I know I can't. common test is in 2 weeks time. I have MMB that I haven't revised and I realized there is alot of them. Immumo is tough. like really tough. And I have a advisor who constantly reminds you on how much you are letting your parents down for not doing well enough. I know she makes sense. but I'm also trying. It's almost as if she voided all of our sleepless nights. But then again, can't blame her. we ain't showing we quality work. 'You all are gonna fail immuno.' that strikes hard and hurtful. CCTA practical is 1 week away. first to do. and I'm so scared. I'm so clumsy. how am I supposed to do things properly. I'm bound to fail it. DBG is a mess.
Lady Luck, can you shine on me again, like how you always do? I'll try my best, my very very best. But please, give me a hand. I don't know how long more I can hold it all together.
NTS: after CT, go to raffles place Starbucks with a book and order Venti drink. stay there whole day. I need an escape.
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