MY LITTLE DREAM

THE EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. and holiday is coming in. Surprisingly, i dont feel like working at all this semester break. i just wanna nua, stone, nua, stone, nua again. but anyway, ive gotten two events job and i hope that my agencies will get me more events jobs! me love events job now, because semester breaks are too short for any proper job. and dance is occupying quite alot of my time.. if only it was three months long! and im finally gonna work with friends! working with weishi and theresa for IT fair. so eggcited ^.^ never worked with any friends before. hahaha. #foreveralone so happy. tmr going for first training then meeting dear for dinner (:

okay, so enough on my bullshit. hahaha. moving on to my tpoic of the day: my little dream. Yknow, every girl have always had this fantasy to herself. Like some would be, one day i wanna be able to shop clothes and shoes without worrying about not having not enough money (this honestly sound like weishi. okay. doubt she'll see this. else she will kill me for exposing her. hiakhiak), or maybe finding your perfect one and living happily ever ever after.

 okay so i have two little dreams.

1) To be cycling, in my those super cute feminine bicycle (dont judge me) with my bag in the basket in front, through the friendly neighbourhood, greeting everyone i know, in a normal turquoise shirt, chinos, sneakers and a messy bun. Okay, this is more like a scenario. ive always wanted to go overseas, to like Europe or some angmoh countries la. And live in one small town, where everyone is so friendly, and things are not as fast paced as in Singapore. I honestly cannot take the stress and high paced Singapore. Its almost suffocating. Wouldnt it be nice if everything just slowed down?

2) open a cafe. Its like opening one that has two or three storeys. With one floor for friends who wanna hang out, another for students like me who cant stay home to study cos the bed loves us too much, but the library is too crowded and starbucks and coffeebean too. There would be pancakes, waffles, drinks, curry chicken with rice, toast, ice cream and all sorts of light snacks for all those who would appreciate a nice quiet afternoon with nice food, nice ambiance, and hanging out with friends or studying. Of course, there will be books too, with the new books updated weekly. Because there are people like me who love to just go to some quiet place, order a drink with a good book and just enjoy the afternoon with myself or with your loved ones. Its just so... tranquil. But this is apparently not feasible in Singapore and not feasible for me now because i have no capital to start any business. Neither am  equipped with the proper skills. ( i only know how to grow bacteria la sia) haha. so this little dream of mine might have to wait. And prolly i'll work hard now, earn some cash, then migrate to some europe country to open such a cafe. Failure? its okay. im old alrdy. ill just spend all my cash and try my best to serve those who appreciate my effort. Dr Chai said this once in class, (tho it was meant to be a joke) the worst thing is to go to heaven and see all your cash on earth that you can never use again. and whats worst is that what if i go to hell? im such a bad person :( so might as well, spend the remaining years of my life after my retirement, spending my money making people smile (:

okay, this is just my dream okay. i doubt ill even be able to get out of Singapore. hahahaha. come back to reality.

So ive been really cranky recently. Like really cranky. a little thing could make me upset for very long. is it me being insensitive, or is it me being too sensitive? am i reading into things more than i should? am i imagining things? i dont know. i just hope that time will prove it all.

thats all. goodnight people (: